and all through my brain
the panic was stirring
and causing me a tremendous amount of pain and anxiety, confusion and self-doubt ...
i don't want to do it; i just want it to be over.
i've got this, but when it's over, i've precious little left.
i've never not been a student, and have no idea what to do or how to identify elsewise.
not that kind of doctor.
end of the line, kiddo. off you get.